1. |
Sir John Feelgood
04:48
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but there's no such thing as wasting time
and if there is it slips my mind
the years are kind, the years are cruel
and time just got away from you
well then sir john feelgood is my name
i'll give her nothing for the pain
my kind does nothing of the sort
they call me SJF for short
i wanna coach a championship team
was always a loser, do you know what i mean
that used to be easy
but now it's so goddamn hard
i wanna ghostwrite a famous song
watch all of the assholes in the crowd sing along
as they identify with some guy
credited in size six font
but when i hear him talk
what do you expect
i wanna kiss his face
i wanna break his neck
i wanna show her that she's not right
i'm not as weird as i think, yeah
some people are shy
and i am one of them
but i shouldn't worry cuz that makes it worse
but when she hears me talk
what do you expect
does she hear my words
or just their effect
on her friends who watch me like i am
some silent excuse for a proper man
who lets cigarette smoke pour from his mouth
because nothing else is coming out
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2. |
Speed Trap
02:24
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my life the speed trap
bet you didn't think that i'd get caught
that's what i thought
my life the speed trap
my life the inside joke
i hope you all go to hell
i hope you all choke
my life the jacket
you hate as soon as you put it on
my life the black rat
as soon as you see me you just wish i was gone
hope she's in love with me
cuz i'm in love with her
god called me up and said
sorry, wrong number
i live in a speed trap
i spend my whole life praying i won't get caught
it doesn't stop me from speeding
even though she's the cop
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i stare at the pictures you taped to your wall
the pictures of me don't look like me at all
i was unhappy, now i smile when i talk
i don't drink too much, i look up when i walk
and see the world pass by
although i trip sometimes
but i don't mind
we go to the opera, you wear your black dress
i only hear music, you only see sets
there for a moment just before it's gone
i turn to see you as the curtains are drawn
and then it all went black
like i'd stood up too fast
i try to remember which subway we took
i never read signs, though i kiss by the book
then what is the point of my being well read
if i put into songs all the things left unsaid
i'll tell you something though
i think you're beautiful
you are
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4. |
Victory Lap
03:04
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you're better than me
oh well who could that be
calling at this hour
i thought they were asleep
to the dregs of this cup
i think new york woke me up
now i owe it something too
it helped me fall in love with you
i think i look good for once
that shit cracks me up
i used to be afraid of mirrors
back when i still had any fears
and darling my whole life
is falling apart
so what's the difference if you break my heart
so what's the difference if you tear me apart
sweet carry
on carry
sweet song carry on
you're gonna make it
i try man i always get frustrated
with the sad parts when they sound forced
like a rider on a fast horse
good girl won't you please
take me to brooklyn
help me cross the street
when i am not looking
at the cars at the ground
i got too much to figure out
and darling my whole life
is falling apart
so what's the difference if you break my heart
so what's the difference if you tear me apart
and maybe i was wrong to do what i did
i am not wrong, i'm inconsiderate
that doesn't mean that i don't give a shit
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5. |
In Yonkers
04:14
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hey
you look a thousand miles away
i wanna know you
talking to me
like i'm someone that you think you see through
hey
you know that it's not like that
it's not like anything at all
when you got to try to be sad
you just give me a call
take the subway for an hour
i wanna fall asleep
lean on you and close my eyes
and nothing bothers me
hey
it was a perfect day
some park we found in yonkers
bet you think that i'm just a trick
i bet you all think i bought her
oh, she's a bird in my hand
oh, she'll know i borrowed that
but now that she's mine
i think about her all the time
next to the old thruway
we did what's finally legal
and all the things i do out of love
are beyond good and evil
hey someone else said that
don't you think i know it
you have always loved her back
you think i would have shown it
oh, but she makes me sing
just a hand, and she is my ring
but now that she's mine
i'll sing about her all the time
now that you're mine
i can give you all my time
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6. |
Colorado
02:56
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colorado
put your lips to the horn
and all your breath is transformed
into praise
for a place
i am starting the car
and if you think i won't get far
i already know
i'm going home
to colorado
i'm wherever you are
when days turn cold
i'm wherever you are
when i am cold
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7. |
The Jersey Devil
01:48
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beware the scorn
that comes with growing horns
that's what the new jersey devil said
when he sat in tears at the foot of my bed
i wished he'd wipe his tears from his terrible face
when he told me hell is a very real place
you will go there if you have been bad
i told him i'm better than all of that
when you get to heaven you will shake god's hand
and spend the rest of all time looking down at the damned
then he gnashed his teeth and he wrung his hands
while he tried and failed to understand
that it does not matter what you do
if you do not let it bother you
and that no one could possibly make
the right decision by mistake
for mistakes are only fine and well
for those who don't believe in hell
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8. |
The Myth of Sisyphus
02:40
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when you're in love
every day feels exactly the same
oh but darling
oh but won't you stay
i hardly ever see her and whenever i do
i feel like she wants me to go away
i hate to get the feeling
that i'm wasting your time
when you ask me to give it a rest
and you think that i'd get sick of being nickled and dimed
but i'm not happy til i'm penniless
found me on the floor
when i forgot who i was
and i needed you to figure me out
you didn't say a word and neither did because
you put all of the words inside of my mouth
you meet the man you meet the myth
we fall in love we have a tryst
i was your fourth you were my fifth
and you can call me sisyphus
i'm pushing a rock up a hill
this is my rock this is my hill
i watch the rock roll down the hill
i push the rock back up the hill
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9. |
Bottlerockets
02:56
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if you don't know what to say about me
just make it up
your friend would watch you choke and die
before he gave a fuck
you were holding out your heart for somebody else
but if he turns away from you
then you're just holding out
their conversation is like a fire
they hardly take turns
but if you wanna keep it up then someone's gotta burn
know i was lit just like a fifth drunken cigarette
i was the ash that fell and got all over your dress
i said he'll give you something
that you know you won't keep
thought you were listening
you were just falling asleep
on that beach in rockaway by the lonely lake
i see nothing but your hands over your face
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10. |
The Penny Hymnal
03:50
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credit card machine
99 cent show
i've got a dollar to my name
and i'm gonna go out after
with my friends
gonna blow my last penny saved
it's more money than i'll ever have again
if it's not right but i guess it's fun
penny shots for everyone
my love is like a lighter flame
and i only take drugs that are appropriately named
ash tray for your fat friend
she said if my day gets any worse
then the world will end
and i gave free beer to the bad band
they called themselves the christians
they had bloody hands
with stigmata of red pearl paints
singing penny hymns for the penny saints
to the nickel god on his high school stage
if you're gonna act like a jerk at least act like one your age
you need love to raise you up
i need love to keep me down
stand on my shoulders
touch the sky
the weight will keep me on the ground
i will sink and you will fly
i will rest while you are free
touching heaven with your hands
and may i touch you in my dreams
and in my time beneath the earth
i saw faces in the dirt
i was scared i did not stir
and they asked me where you were
for they knew i loved you best
a brush with life is part of death
for they knew i loved you so
and for that they let me go
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11. |
Ghost Dance
01:38
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gonna bring her back with my ghost dance
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12. |
Fought For
04:24
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tell me you are the one that i fought for
with the tangled mess of sheets on your room floor
if i were not so young i would have stayed there
seeing dark walls of the room thru your dark hair
self begat
self maintained
self unknown
self defamed
self unknown
self attained
self forgot
self defamed
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13. |
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i tried
bye bye
i don't think it was ever
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14. |
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and if you need a friend
that's why i'm here
and if you want to see me at all
and if you want to see me at ever
if you're in love with the boy down the hall
and he never says more than whatever
and i'm in love with nothing at all
but that doesn't stop me from trying
do you remember that time in the fall
that he made us believe he was dying
and i don't think it was much at all
my love i don't think it was ever
and i was waiting for you to call
i know i might be waiting for ever
you've gone
gone where i cannot see you now
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15. |
What Gives
04:46
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if you're leaving now
for berlin
you'll be leaving me
won't change anything
first the days apart
then the months
i will slip your mind
but you will be in mine
and things they just won't change at all
do you remember when
in the woods
you asked me would you
and i said i would
but where i am from
i can see
almost half a year
staring back at me
and things they just won't change at all
but that's how i felt when she turned 19
i'm losing my shit
you know what i mean
and that's how i felt when i turned 20
she's losing it
oh you know what i mean
but what gives
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16. |
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sometimes too much
is just enough
sometimes more than you need
is just what you need
and in that excess of my being
i thought i heard her say to me
that there's no such thing as freedom
if no one can set you free
her room had a motto
above the door
fight for the power of the city
not the sharpness of the sword
but i don't got there
not anymore
instead of falling out of bed
just started sleeping on the floor
the filthy sheets upon the bed
the mug of ash and cigarettes
i woke from sleep upon the floor
while daisy's ghost was at the door
i hope you understand
she said
her head fell to the floor
she looked up at me and said
jack, i can't do this anymore
i walk to the porch
to see the snow at dawn
some french actress is making love
to a man upon the lawn
well we don't do that
not where i'm from
good girls cook themselves to death
while their men drown themselves in rum
but i let it happen
i check the mail
because you've got to get a wind up
if you're going to set sail
but when you see it
flying free and pale
saying fuck advice on freedom
from someone sitting in a jail
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17. |
Lonely Ghouls Club
03:46
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when i wake up
and i always find
i am the same person that i was last night
asleep in the same bed
alone in the same mind
i don't get dressed but i
get out of bed
sometimes i wake up
without a thought in my head
sometimes i wake up
and i wish that i was dead
i shut my mouth
i know just what it said
it says
i'll never be with her again
my thoughts my thoughts my thoughts
she's far away
well fuck them all
i go about my day
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18. |
I Had a Grey Vision
04:12
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floating at the bottom of the sea
where nothing bothers me
alas for those who do not care
and never even cared at all
woe unto those who hear the phone
and don't answer the call
racing towards a red light
the human race ends at a stop sign
she's got a lotta nerve handing me time
i am not man
i am mankind
and i do my best to defend
all my worst moods to your best friends
and it's not that they don't get it
they just never pay attention
and i am floating at the bottom of the sea
saw you in an awful dream
your face was turned away from me
making eyes at everyone
and yeah i had no legs to run
the cross in your grandfather's house
will hang over him upside down
the open doors the bloody sheets
the symbolism's lost on me
heard there was something bad to do
so i did it
yeah i used to be an alright guy
but you missed it
i know you're sure there's something wrong with you
yeah who isn't
and i shouldn't be seeing things
but yeah i had a grey vision
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19. |
Guerilla Girls
03:44
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you know i can't talk
or meet your friends they have a way
of making me feel so small
i'm standing in the corner with a drink
leaning against the wall
they'll chew me
chew me out
i can't talk when i should
but when i shouldn't i can't shut my mouth
you tried to catch my eye
but i was busy staring at the ground
if there's nothing to talk about
then why did you even ask
guerilla girls will trip me up
they're only here to wear their masks
the sun won't come out
ashamed to show his face
he's busy cowering behind a cloud
i'll bet he only shows it
when he knows nobody is around
he's a jerk
he runs away
and i know how he feels
and i know that there is nothing you can say
you know he'll come around
you know where he'll be at the break of day
it's not my fault i'm uncultured
it's not my fault i have no class
guerilla girls will trip me up
they're only here to wear their masks
look me in the face and ask me
what the hell's your problem man
guerilla girls will trip me up
they're only here to wear their masks
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20. |
Her Memory Hour
04:10
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he makes me feel like
someone new
every time i walk outside
you make me feel
so new and special
and he was the worst of the worst
all the time i know
he won't be there for me
no i won't
there's nothing at stake for me
or for us to come over
with some terrible disease
all the time i'm waking up at night
and i can't sleep
i can't
what you make of me
all these things
terrible to behold
i was
better than everything
i was loved
all the time
i was
i remember everything
all my memories
making me some one new everyday
the street that i grew up on
thought i would never leave
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(rains but when it pours)
i am a terrible piece of outsider art
tucked out of view in your attic
somewhere in the dark
to stand at the gallery someday
suffer the remarks
of your art school friends and my literary counterparts
stand with the auctioneer
wearing nothing but my shoes
covered in unmixed acrylic paint
straight from the tube
no one will bid on me
they'll hand me straight back to you
stain your hand when i hold it
ruin everything that you do
you are a diplomat
new queen of the occident
your throne of dead leaves
the ring of white frost upon your head
but god reserves halos for those who already dead
his attic of glory
his basement of boredom and dread
when i go to heaven
i think it will look like your room
the sun's coming up you're asleep
i'm lying next to you
flowers wither outside of your window
but none ever bloom
they might have been perfect but now there is nothing to lose.
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